What Is Behind A Name and Birthdate?

Normally i just had people measure my personality by the birth date only. And i got number 8. One remark i remember for this number is that "orang nie you all boleh letak dia jadi perisai. badai ribut datang pun takkan lari". Ye ke Cik Lan? I am actually not really brave as the personality describe. I just buat buat berani je. i even had try the personality test in the website which need me to answer question base on the situation that similiar to myself. I got ENFP.

When, Ong describe my personality type, i just surprise as it is almost true. "She do not talk a lot. People seem to see her do much talking. But, actually she ob serve more than talk." Yes, i think that's really true. And he even said that
"when she talks she like to choose her words. She's very careful to talking job" Hmmm, i hope so people will think like that when i talk. I really not a laser type. And I even not humouros type. SOme said i 'lambat pickup in lawak stuff'.

Then I'd got mail from Raj the best trainer. Hihi, he put it in an envelope. This time my personality was measured base on NAME and BIRTHDATE. Well in Raj Numeroogy Scoresheet, my COLOR interpretation was BLACK/VIOLET. The POSITIVE indicator are: ANALYTICAL, DIGNIFIED, INTELLECTUAL, INQUISITIVE, STRONG, SOLITUDE. Meanwhile, the NEGATIVE indicator are: RESERVED,INDAPTABLE, OVER POSITIVE, POSSESIVE. My CHARACTERISTIC was JUPITER: u will lead a life with strong principles like Trust, Honesty and Justice, Difficult to cheated and at the same time don't like to cheat others. need to enhance skills further. Try not to be complacent. And my SICKNESS PRONE is DEHYDRATION.

I take it as motivation to improve self. Most of it, seem to really reflecting me. Well, try to make better for the bad. An make the best out of the best.

I Speak Very Well ??

Thank you. I appreciate it very much. Especially when it came out from someone in that position ^^. (Kembang jap la aku, haha)

But what i do is just trying my best, that all. Ye la, nak bercakap depan orang besar nie, mesti la terketar di buatnye. pulak tue speaking, speakang. Aku taram jer, buat2 konpiden... Anyway it's a new experience, walaupun before this dah pernah bercakap dpn tv, namun bila bcakap live dpn org lagi gerun rupanye...

I take the praise as a motivation for me. I have to proof them that i'm not good at talking only, but also can make the different they want. Ya Allah, tolonglah hamba mu ini. Permudahkanlah urusan kerjaku yang banyak cabaran ini... Lembutkanlah hati insan-insan tersebut agar mudah kami berurusan. Dan murahkan rezeki aku dan keluargaku.. Ameen.

If It Is To Be, It Is Up To Me

Seseorang bercerita tentang permulaan langkah membina kejayaannya "if it is to be it is up to me". Perkataan keramat inilah yang telah membangkit dan menyedarkan beliau agar bangun berusaha untuk mencapai kejayaan dalam kerjaya. And even after he already successful in his career and decided to resign and start his own business, it actually like opening a new chapter in his life journey.

Dan sekali lagi dia seperti merangkak semula untuk mencipta kejayaan dalam fasa hidupnya yang baru. And this time, perkataan keramat yang mendorong beliau berjaya di dalam perniagaan adalah dari seorang insan istimewa yang secara logiknya mempunyai keupayaan fizikal yang lebih rendah dari manusia sempurna. "tangan yang mampu menolong kita hanyalah tangan kita sendiri" ketika insan itu memberitahu yang dia tidak mahu ditolong leh orang yang simpati terhadap kekurangannya.

And i always wondering, when i'm going to be sucesful as this people. Dan jika orang sebegini berjaya dengan perkataan keramat sebegitu dan membina kepercayaan terhadap diri.. mengapa tidak aku.... and perkataan keramat untuk ku hari ini adalah "it start with u..."

Sepi... Sunyi...Sendiri...

aku seringkali juga terasa spt ini. mengapa? aku pun tak tahu. sedangkan anak-anak ade jer bersama aku nie. buat bising memekak bergaduh seperti biasa antara mereka berdua. nak kata sbb hubby tiada di rumah ketika ini menyebabkan perasaan sebegini tidak juga.

namun aku mersainya tidak kira samada berada bersama hubby, anak, famili, rakan mahupun crowd. apa sebenarnyar kesepian yang dirasai ini? bagaimana kesunyian ini terjadi? mengapa terasa seperti ini bersendiri?

aku hanya mampu tenggelam dalam pencarian yang tidak pasti ini...