2010 Resolution vs 2011 Resolution

Let c if my 2010 target had been achieved or not....

- get new job (done) 2011: REPEAT
- save 20% of my salary in ASB (only 10%) 2011: REPEAT
- teach my kids to save their daily balance (failed)2011: NEW PLAN
- save in advance duit Raya for Parents (failed) 2011: NEW PLAN
- hear Amar read succesfully without help for all series of Peter & Jane and Bacalah Anakku (partially)2011: NEW PLAN)
- get into our new apartment this year, Home Sweet Home (failed) 2011: ???

Year 2011? I'm not ready =(

today aku cuti MC. takde mood nak keje. aku bosan aku benci aku menyampah. so aku dok melangut sambil on9 dr pg tadi. Tp ape pon aku tak apa yg aku buat smpai laa saat nie.

hmm aku rasa mcm nak hentikan masa. 2011 dah nak tiba nd i'm not ready not ready not ready.

please stop the time for a while dont go nea 2011 until i'm ready please please please >.< i must do sumthing hmmmm

Today I come to work with an ease feeling. Bukan pasal apa pun, sebab lepas dari audit ISO semalam. Lepas tak bermmakna lulus ler tapinya. At least takde kepala otak aku nie risau and ligat memikir apa lagi yang tak cukup.

Tapi semalam waktu, diorang nak buat closing audit tu

I might need this in future. So why dont I save it here :)


- banyakkan doa, zikir ya aziz, ya jabbar, ya mutakabbir, tiupkan ke kepalanya masa dia tgh lena tido.
ataupun baca surah as-syura ayat 19 sebnyk 3x, pejam mata bygkan muka dia, pastu tiupkan ke dada dia, niatkan agar lembut hatinya supaya boleh dibukakan pintu perbincangan - from one post in thread forum.cari.com.my

ALONE @ SENDIRI

Tetiba aku rasa aku .S.E.N.D.I.R.I.

Mengapa? I feel tense & crowded at work and suddenly i was left alone looking at the blank sight of my life..... alone now.. alone and alone....sendiri terus sendiri... sepi.... Dan detik terus berlari tanpa berhenti....

And where have i gone wrong??

Raising Difficult Children: Kids Who Are “More” of Everything - Parenthood.com

Lately, aku sering mencari artikel perihal mengendalikan anak yang sukar @ difficult. Sebab keadaan bagi semakin kronik antara Amela dan kitorang berdua sbg ibubapa.

Aku cuba untuk tidak berkeras dan fikir apa yang baik utk kitorang as parent and Amela as our beloved son. Cuba utk ambil hati dengan mengikut cara Amela... namun masih gagal dan menimbulkan tekanan tahap maksima. But, every problem have a solution. And we have to find it..... Artikel dibawah antara yang menarik dalam pencarian aku. Namun masih belum jawapan kepada pencarian... However it still a good articl for me....

Raising Difficult Children: Kids Who Are “More” of Everything - Parenthood.com

B.A.T.U.K

Asik batu jer.. tengah tying nie pun batuk gak... batu nie tak lah teruk... tapi leh tahan gak lah... tekak tak sakit.. tapi bila dah batuk berkali2 jadi sakit tekak and leher pon tegang gak ler...

mm risau gak serius kew...mm tak kot.. sofar btuk takde la macam aku demam selalu.. tapi bila aku batuk nie ade kuar sikit kahak jer..sikit sangat just sbb batuk then ia kuar (hehehe sowy aaa agaj\k geli yea).

frequency batu every 2 minit rasanya.. kalu aku tahan utk tak membatukkkan diri.. agak sukar juga sbb mulut aku katup dalam aku berbatuk2an... niway, yang pelik batuk worse bila malam... bila siang aku takkan terbatuk2 sekerap ini..

Kerja oh Kerja

Lega akhirnya hai ini sebab dapat berehat selepas berminggu berpenat lelah kerja lewat malam nalah sampai ke pagi....

Semua gara-gara nak prepare and coreection all document before visit ISO.. Menuruti apa yang kompeni mahi capai.. tapi menyeksa diri kita yang lewat persediaan... siot jer...

Sebab tumpukan ke benda nie.. kerja berlebih masa (tapi tak dapat ap pon..) samapi lupakan kesihatan.. tak makan ubat.. tapi tetap kecewa...

Kecewa?? kenapa? sebab kita dah berpenat lelah... dan dah berkeyakinan.. tetapi kita gagal... dan memalukan kerana terasa orang mentertawakan diri kita.... Orang melihat kelemahan kita.. so sad...

Tapi, selepas berfikir secara rasional.. aku mengambil kira kesilapan kali ini sebagai pedoman dan pelajaran... Kerana ada tambahan ilmu yang aku peorlehi.. diharap dapay mmperbaiki lagi diri ini....

Pokai Lepas Raya huwaaaa!!!

HmmM lepas raya terus pokai dan ketandusan duit... mana nak cari duit lagi... komitmen kewangan pula bertambah... hmmm.. hmmm...

Then terbaca artikel Irfan Khairi tentang 'lari bajet lepas raya':
".....Pada hari raya ke-3 saya menjalankan segmen motivasi saya di TV1, Hujung Minggu Malaysia bertajuk “Bangun Semula Selepas Raya” yang membincangkan bagaimana hendak mengurus semula kewangan kita sekiranya “ter” lari budget ketika raya. (Jangan lupa menonton segmen saya setiap Ahad)

Hanya 2 cara sahaja yang kita boleh lakukan untuk stabilkan kewangan kita. iaitu:

* Tambahkan simpanan (berjimat)
* Tambahkan pendapatan

Untuk tambahkan simpanan atau berjimat, satu formula yang dikenali sebagai “Solusi 60%” boleh digunakan. Solusi 60% bermaksud:

1. 60% dari pendapatan kita adalah untuk keperluan bulanan seperti membayar kereta, rumah, bill, makan minum dan sebagainya.
2. 10% dari pendapatan adalah untuk simpanan jangka panjang
3. 10% dari pendapatan adalah untuk simpanan jangka pendek
4. 10% dari pendapatan adalah untuk simpanan hari tua/pencen.
5. 10% dari pendapatan adalah untuk hiburan / perbelanjaan am

Selepas raya, sekiranya terdapat masalah yang sering dialami seperti penggunaan kad kredit meningkat, maka, perlu dilakukan simpanan kecemasan.Iaitu, masih menggunakan formula di atas, tetapi, ubahkan (3) & (4) iaitu simpanan jangka pendek dan simpanan hari tua kepada pembayaran kad kredit buat sementara waktu

Dengan menggunakan solusi 60% ini, ia menjadi satu panduan untuk kita tambahkan simpanan kita dan kurangkan perbelanjaan secara terancang.

Sekiranya tiada ruang untuk kita menggunakan Solusi 60%, dan tiada ruang untuk kita menambahkan simpanan kita, maka, pilihan seterusnya adalah menambahkan pendapatan kita...." - from www.irfankhairi.com


Jadi kalu dalam situasi aku skang nie kira cemana?? (aku kira campur gaji kitorang laki bini laaa)

1. 60% dari pendapatan kita adalah untuk keperluan bulanan seperti membayar kereta, rumah, bill, makan minum dan sebagainya. - 97.5%
2. 10% dari pendapatan adalah untuk simpanan jangka panjang - hmm???
3. 10% dari pendapatan adalah untuk simpanan jangka pendek - hmm??
4. 10% dari pendapatan adalah untuk simpanan hari tua/pencen. -hmm??
5. 10% dari pendapatan adalah untuk hiburan / perbelanjaan am - none

So cemana niw..... huwaaaa... takkan nak jual semua harta mende aku nie...hmmmm

Sekolah Harapan?

It's open already..... but still no student?? Yalah, the establishment of the school was quite controversy. But, the main purose are to avoid the girl to dump their innocent babies. Now, i see it have a positive side.. but ada kah orang mau hantar anak mereka...?? Misti parent they all pong malu gak... hmmmm...



Malaysia opens first school for pregnant teens
Malaysia's first school for pregnant teenagers opened on Friday but the controversial facility, aimed at curbing an epidemic of "baby dumping", has yet to sign up a single student.

Conservative commentators in Muslim-majority Malaysia have complained that Sekolah Harapan or "School of Hope" will only encourage premarital sex.

But its chairman Rahaman Karim defended the school as a practical strategy to combat the rising numbers of abandoned infants -- often dumped dead or dying in the streets or on rubbish dumps in cases that have shocked Malaysians.

"Islam and other religions offer a chance for people to repent. We give them a chance to repent and we hope they will turn over a new leaf," he said.

"This is something new for our society so people are still weighing their pros and cons," he said, adding there had been six requests from prospective students around the country.

"But we have to take action now on these cases of baby dumping, we can't just let that happen," he said on a tour of the building's newly painted classrooms, filled with empty chairs and tables.

An all-female staff will offer normal classes as well as counselling and skills training to the girls, whose privacy is assured. After their delivery and confinement period, they will return to their normal schools.

Giving birth out of wedlock still carries a strong social stigma in Malaysia, a multicultural society embracing Muslim Malays as well as ethnic Chinese and Indian communities.

Aidilfitri 2010

Dah lama tak update blog. hmm bukan takde benda nak cakap... tapi tak sempat nak taip menaip.

Ok, what's new? Actually i would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya to everybody. I may be a little bit late.. but still got few more day before Lebaran last. Kali ni kami just sambut di Shah Alam. Why? Sebab my hubby not so confidence his Kancil capable to bring him home back to Kelantan this time. However our Exora not able to get before Hari Raya. At last we just beraya at my parents house.

Ths Raya not so meriah laa. (i always feel that our raya never a meriah one) but it still a meaningful raya.... Dad had to work in pagi raya. start to go fork as usal at 6 on 1st day raya (kesian ayah). But he can go out to solat raya laa and sambung balik kerja after that.

So 1st day raya we had our raya in te morning, makan2 at mak and ayah house. then waiting for those who wanna to come to our house pagi raya. then n body come, only Nani's boyfirend. So we start to go visit our relative. And we bring Nani's boyfriend as well ^_^

Rumah yang kitorang pergi (together with mak, Amir, Nani and her bf, me and my family) adalah rumah Mak Ngah at Sgbuloh and rumah arwah nenek at Sg Way.

Owh, forget to mention... my dotter Babbie was sent back to kampung. Not sent back laaa, dia yang merengek nak balik. then suddenly dia pula minta di ambil semula selepas 3 hari at kampung.. hihi sebab makcik balik semula ke johor..

Well no more to type.. c ya next time (penat ler pulok...)

Khatimah Cinta

Long time havent update my blog.. Very da busy.. But today nak layan lagu nie because somehow make me recall a memory..

Bintang Malam nyanyikan lagu
Rindu hatiku yang terpendam
Bintang malam lukis wajahku
Katakan aku pergi

Genggamlah cinta yang ku berikan
Simpanlah selalu dalam hati
Ku akan selalu dalam mimpimu
Menemani tidurmu

Sudahlah sudah
Ku harus pergi
Jangan kau tangisi aku lagi
Biarku bawa seluruh cintamu
Ku dakap dalam tidur panjangku

Peluk tubuhku
Kucup bibirku
Relakan saja aku pergi...

What Is Behind A Name and Birthdate?

Normally i just had people measure my personality by the birth date only. And i got number 8. One remark i remember for this number is that "orang nie you all boleh letak dia jadi perisai. badai ribut datang pun takkan lari". Ye ke Cik Lan? I am actually not really brave as the personality describe. I just buat buat berani je. i even had try the personality test in the website which need me to answer question base on the situation that similiar to myself. I got ENFP.

When, Ong describe my personality type, i just surprise as it is almost true. "She do not talk a lot. People seem to see her do much talking. But, actually she ob serve more than talk." Yes, i think that's really true. And he even said that
"when she talks she like to choose her words. She's very careful to talking job" Hmmm, i hope so people will think like that when i talk. I really not a laser type. And I even not humouros type. SOme said i 'lambat pickup in lawak stuff'.

Then I'd got mail from Raj the best trainer. Hihi, he put it in an envelope. This time my personality was measured base on NAME and BIRTHDATE. Well in Raj Numeroogy Scoresheet, my COLOR interpretation was BLACK/VIOLET. The POSITIVE indicator are: ANALYTICAL, DIGNIFIED, INTELLECTUAL, INQUISITIVE, STRONG, SOLITUDE. Meanwhile, the NEGATIVE indicator are: RESERVED,INDAPTABLE, OVER POSITIVE, POSSESIVE. My CHARACTERISTIC was JUPITER: u will lead a life with strong principles like Trust, Honesty and Justice, Difficult to cheated and at the same time don't like to cheat others. need to enhance skills further. Try not to be complacent. And my SICKNESS PRONE is DEHYDRATION.

I take it as motivation to improve self. Most of it, seem to really reflecting me. Well, try to make better for the bad. An make the best out of the best.

I Speak Very Well ??

Thank you. I appreciate it very much. Especially when it came out from someone in that position ^^. (Kembang jap la aku, haha)

But what i do is just trying my best, that all. Ye la, nak bercakap depan orang besar nie, mesti la terketar di buatnye. pulak tue speaking, speakang. Aku taram jer, buat2 konpiden... Anyway it's a new experience, walaupun before this dah pernah bercakap dpn tv, namun bila bcakap live dpn org lagi gerun rupanye...

I take the praise as a motivation for me. I have to proof them that i'm not good at talking only, but also can make the different they want. Ya Allah, tolonglah hamba mu ini. Permudahkanlah urusan kerjaku yang banyak cabaran ini... Lembutkanlah hati insan-insan tersebut agar mudah kami berurusan. Dan murahkan rezeki aku dan keluargaku.. Ameen.

If It Is To Be, It Is Up To Me

Seseorang bercerita tentang permulaan langkah membina kejayaannya "if it is to be it is up to me". Perkataan keramat inilah yang telah membangkit dan menyedarkan beliau agar bangun berusaha untuk mencapai kejayaan dalam kerjaya. And even after he already successful in his career and decided to resign and start his own business, it actually like opening a new chapter in his life journey.

Dan sekali lagi dia seperti merangkak semula untuk mencipta kejayaan dalam fasa hidupnya yang baru. And this time, perkataan keramat yang mendorong beliau berjaya di dalam perniagaan adalah dari seorang insan istimewa yang secara logiknya mempunyai keupayaan fizikal yang lebih rendah dari manusia sempurna. "tangan yang mampu menolong kita hanyalah tangan kita sendiri" ketika insan itu memberitahu yang dia tidak mahu ditolong leh orang yang simpati terhadap kekurangannya.

And i always wondering, when i'm going to be sucesful as this people. Dan jika orang sebegini berjaya dengan perkataan keramat sebegitu dan membina kepercayaan terhadap diri.. mengapa tidak aku.... and perkataan keramat untuk ku hari ini adalah "it start with u..."

Sepi... Sunyi...Sendiri...

aku seringkali juga terasa spt ini. mengapa? aku pun tak tahu. sedangkan anak-anak ade jer bersama aku nie. buat bising memekak bergaduh seperti biasa antara mereka berdua. nak kata sbb hubby tiada di rumah ketika ini menyebabkan perasaan sebegini tidak juga.

namun aku mersainya tidak kira samada berada bersama hubby, anak, famili, rakan mahupun crowd. apa sebenarnyar kesepian yang dirasai ini? bagaimana kesunyian ini terjadi? mengapa terasa seperti ini bersendiri?

aku hanya mampu tenggelam dalam pencarian yang tidak pasti ini...

My New Hair

Haha.... gaji already in. So i opt to get first thing in mind done. Go foe hair cut and straightening. Waking up early at 6 in the morning for my new job, leave me no time to struggle with hair styling. I think short and straight hair will save me time! :)

This pic was take while i drop by at my ex-workplace to c my friend there.

I Am Getting Overweight !!!

yeah, i did eat a lot lately. mybe that's the reason. i am now 54.6kg and my body fat is abou 36%. OMG, how could i still not taking any action about this. it's not that i don't want to slim down. always in my mind, i'm thinking of "u have to loose your wieghtnow", but for me take take the action on the problem is sooo hard.

b4 i i c food, i had plan just to eat some, but then when food had been in front of me.... the "it's okay only this time, so sayang if i don't eat this today" came into mind. it's not a phrase trigger from mind but lust.

just so frustrated when i c my tummy becaome bigger and bigger and u csan really c it if i'm wearing a knitted shirt! every body had sound me about this. hey! u look like have putting a weight or some of them just directly said, loose your weight. u look fat now.

uwaaa, i should be doing something. please, i must loose weight!!!

Not Too Late For 2010 Wish

I wish to

• get new job (got 2 offers, but i choose the one with establish and stable)
• save 20% of my salary in ASB (currently only able to save 10% in form of force saving -loan ASB- and other 10% is so hard for me not to spend it. up to March 2010, i still cannot make it 20%)
• teach my kids to save their daily balance
• save in advance duit Raya for Parents (until March not even done yet)
• hear Amar read succesfully without help for all series of Peter & Jane and Bacalah Anakku (currently Bacalah Anakku Book 4; Peter & Jane Book 1a)
• get into our new apartment this year, Home Sweet Home

A Chance To Change

Ha so long not updated this poyo start blog of mine. Told ya that i couldn't make it when it is updating a blog! But as time goes on, everything can change. Who knows i might be addicted to blog after this??

Ok, there are lots to tell actually. As i mention before, i'm wanna change my working place as i've been soooo unmotivated being in last company. (Sorry friends i really feel like that when i was in J-U. i always want it to b different there, but seem we are not sharing the same mission over there, so i have to let go.)

for information, i would like to thank God as i was accpeted for the job interview i mention b4. have been demam for 1 week is the result of 1st interview. 1 week later i was called for 2nd interview. went there with flu and headache, the 2nd interview actually is actually a one whole day of assesment and it last with quick interview of each candidate. out of 36 that day, 13 people were selected.

now, i already in the new compant for almost 3 weeks only for training and we ar not yet 2 start our job until 3 more weeks. and 2morrow is our 1st month salary. yippie, so happy. new friends here also nice and what important is there all are passionate people and tak serious of their job.

the new join company also undergoing a process of changing. i thought i'm the only want who need a change. hmm, seem the company also face the same problem: attitude. i understand attitude of the worker really play an important factor on a company success. how other people perception 2wards the company. and the job is tougher than b4. however, i hold to what the hr manager said to existing staff who join us in the training: to start a change u cannot be in the same workplace anymore and it's easier for u to perform the change task when u are working with people dont know compare changing peple u already know.

that is why when my boss calling back and counter offer me, i dont want. bcoz it's not easy 4 me to change the people in J-U, as i ve been pampering them too much. what i said they will slash. even i cant say anything when they punchcard themselve even thogh they actually going back right after that. or leaving me to work alone in the office, plan the work all by myself, done it all by myself and they go 2 holiday every saturday or monday. even let them take lunch for 3 hour. and it actually a contagious bad working attitude as i start to feel its unfair but i cant say a word. to kjaga hati this people i call friend. i dont want the disease to fully spread over me and make me bad!

so, i hope this new play will be a new start for me as we have a same missio which is to change. i change they change and it's for good...

Pengeluaran KWSP untuk membeli rumah

Oh, very tired.. Today early in the morning aku g kwsp dgn harapan dapat setel kan application utk tujuan di atas... namun hampa. rujukan geran kat bank loan offer salah. so terpaksa la eden ke bukit nintang sano ha suruh dia wat ammendment letter (botoi ko eja tue?).

ingat boleh siap today but cannot. so kono la cuti lagi nampaknye... spnb dah menunggu duit deposit dah tu... sabor...sabor...

Outdoor Marketing

well, today a bit tired. have to go out even though not feeling well. (pssstt bos ada, jadi kene ler cergas ckit kan). went to 3 salon+spa+andaman kedai and only 2 aje yg bg support utk beli (sale not close yet). so, i've got to follow up balik mereka nie. but, i would like to comment la.. certain peniaga ni just wanna take glamor prodct jer, the quality diorg tak amik kesah sgt. asal customer amik nampak kesan. kena yg beracun kang naya la depa.. as for me, even i'm not selling my own product but i make sure it has to be safe. sbb aki juga pengguna dan aku tak mau hanya nak cantik nak sihat nak panadai nak cergas tapi menderita disebabkan keghairahan mencuba produk-produk pula.

Interview Oh Interview ...

Aku selalu macam ni. bbila pergi interview je mesti gabra, cuak and blanlk. orang semua tak percaya aku ni tak boleh buat interview. kekadang aku kesal juga. job scope yang dinyatakan dah sama macam apa yang aku buat. malah terlebih2 lagi ada ler.. tapi tu la, time interview i cannot perform. macam mana hr manager tue nak percaya aku boleh! buat kerja. aku sedih gak kekadang. aku nak peluang memajukan diri di tempat lain. tengok macam mana syrikat23 besar yang lain beroperasi. tapi, ntah laa...

now, i feel frustrated dengan interview yang baru aku lalui tadi. namun aku masih berdoa Ya Allah... ko beri peluang kepada ku....

Kene kerja hujung minggu...

Hari ni aku kena kerja samapai lewat malam untuk memperkenalkan produk company dan sekaligus menjualnya. Company dapat free booth because we sponsor the prize for the KARISMA 2010, Kolej Aminuddin Baki, UKM. Patutnya pagi tadi lagi aku dah blah pergi UKM Bangi. Tapi lepas bos call and we had some discussion... aku tunda la pergi petang ni. Sementara takde buat apa2, aku terfikir nak buat blog ni.

Sebenarnya memang susah sikit aku nak aktif menyentuh dan mengendalikan computer tau membrowse internet ni... melainkan hal2 kerja. But, aku saje je membuang masa sekejap di blog ni , saje nak ngetest.

Sebenarnya penat nak kerja today. Baby Chi pula demam panas and kena gelagata satu badan. ?Tapi, sebagai responsible worker aku teruskan juga program membuka booth company di hujung minggu nie. Tapi kalau sale tak seberapa, jangan marah ya boss. Sale dulu dengan sekarang mungkin tak sama.

Tahun sebelum ni kita ada person in charge for one project. Right now, semua project aku sorang nak kene fikir... aku sorang nak kena bertanggungjawab. Bukan, aku berkira... tapi selalu macam nie...! I have to do other people jobs when they're gone.. But boss, you seem never care of people who still support you for free of charge nie. Not only me, but other people yang masih lagi bersamamu.....

Kenali Diriku..

Anje... Manja.. sewaktu usia bayi hingga ke 3 tahun. Eyong... panggilan keluarga sejak kecil. Huda... sejak sekolah rendah hingga sekolah menengah rendah. Eeon... Eyon ketika di MRSM dulu. Yong... ketika Matrikulasi dan Universiti. Siti... Yong... ketika aku mula bekerja.

Kenali aku dengan apa nama sekali pun. Aku tetap orang yang sama...